It has been three and a half months since my ex-wife left me. The pain still hasn’t gone away, and I don’t think that it will ever fully be removed from my being. The piece of my heart that she took with her will always be gone and there will always be a deep scare in its place.
Now that things are final, I’m trying to find out who I am and what I want in my life. I realized that for the last 4 years that I was with Anna that I didn’t get (or take) the chance to truly explore myself and shape and attack my goals and passions. In a way I’m gain myself back, gaining my freedom back, and am learning what it is like to live “my life”.
It is hard to let go of the past and let the memories of it stay behind me, but as I do leave the past behind me and remove the daily memories from my view, I am finding hope for the things to come. I will, someday, find a connection with someone that will even surpass the love and connection that I shared with Anna, even if at this point I have a hard time ever believing that I will.
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